it's come to a point where i'm starting to lose my appetite at work.
it has been a month since this feeling started.
honestly saying, it is not good for anyone because you need energy to work.
lately it's become almost a chore to eat.
i feel like i could use my break to just sleep because it's making me tired.
to escape personal problems i could delve into working alot to keep my mind off.
but not possible when now i can't keep up at work.
i've been complaining of headaches for the past week, i'm annoying.
maybe it should really be a good idea to take a long break.
i still have a list of to go places on my off day but never actually put into action.
still want to go to the seaside.
even if it's pasir ris it's ok.
just to get away and be able to hear the waves.
there's usually 3 ways people turn to : family, work/friends, god or other things (hobbies etc)
recently been thinking if really i believe in anything really.
mostly likely my thinking is warped since i didn't attend services as regularly since i have work on Sundays at times, i could request for off but didn't.
and i don't commune or read that much so, maybe my disbelief is increasing
i'm putting myself in bad light i know, but i'm just being as honest as i can
if not to others to see but to myself
i need to be more honest with my feelings to others, it's hard.
feel like i need to read the purpose driven life again.
no purpose now, not as driven.
or probably driving but no destination
like driving on an infinity loop