years pass. things change. people, places, everything you once used to know.
recently i've been attending alot of parties aka social gatherings.
not once or twice but many times; people have said i have this lost look i wear on my face.
at times during gatherings I'm sort of disconnected or something with the rest.
not in a way that I'm not listening. it's just that i'm not really aware of happenings.
it's not in my nature to inquire about other things that perhaps in another words "do not benefit me". or maybe not that way, but things that "do not concern me because I can't do anything about it"
it may come across as ... selfish? self-centred? care less? indignant?
it's also not that I'm not interested about the subject that is being brought up.
in fact, at times I do learn a thing or two when I listen to others talk.
and it's not like I don't have a say about anything.
I also have my opinions, but as the saying goes, some things are better left unsaid
because it's just my own opinion, maybe in the future I may change it because of some reasoning or from another lesson learnt.
Some times it's like I have alot of questions and others just beat me to it so I end up not having to say anything.
another popular question for me is why i'm so quiet.
i'm not sure what to say about that too.
i guess it's what most people are when you first meet them.
everyone says that they are just shy. but after you know them they will open up.
there's a difference between shyness and quiet.
Introvert - a person characterized by concern primarily with his or her own thoughts and feelings
guess that is how I am.
and it explains all the self-issues that i mention before.
ok, this is such a personal post...
i spent my day with my head clouded up so i had to write it down.