when one is sick, the most important thing is to not lose your mind about it.
it's just the body that is weak but the mind is still strong.
i will get better and stronger after this.
i've been neglecting a few things ever since i started work.
and i realised the time spent while not schooling or working aka "holiday mood" was really a time that i wasted alot.
sure i did what i liked and enjoyed but i think about it again; is it for selfish ambitions?
someone once said to go for a concert is ok nothing wrong, but compare going to a concert which means your ticket fee goes to a charity fund compared to one that your fee goes to the artiste for transport and maintenance.. etc. which one would be better?
generally, one will just think of wanting to see the artiste regardless of whether the fee goes to whose hands. just wanting to see the artiste is the main point. but i guess sometimes as human you will tend to take pity on other less fortunate.
on the flip side, someone else once said why bother about charity funds. if those people are still able to work and support themselves why do they still seek the support from the public for donations? the most logic thing is that they should go to the government or management (if the case calls for either) and settle their problem. if the most higher ups don't move to help then what more can be said for the public?
i think this is just human nature, self before others because we all have the knowledge that each of us are special and should deserve what we expect from others.
but i want to try to not expect anything, that way when something happens the moment becomes even more special and memorable.
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just an update on my life:
SID came to perform with flumpool on 23/5 and i didn't manage to go.
but through the pictures and videos of fellow SID fans from the web i felt like i went for it too.
and of course to kimeki who went (partly on my behalf as well? :D thanks so much!~)
and got pictures too!
and also... after working for almost 2 months my love for anime is slowly growing again!!
folks there love japanese things one way or another~
common interest makes birds of the same feather flock together!~
i will continue to be more positive and enthusiastic!
HWAITING!~~ GANBARE~!
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